Happy, is my mood
Before I start, I can happily confirm myself to be in good spirit and good health. This opening sentence is also now added to my last blog [here]. I also include a warning of the themes of death it addresses. A second sentence is also now added, “However, the topic of death is one which I address in this blog both unhindered from pretending it is not a thing, and without apology”. I will however apologise to those closest to me for not offering that first sentence at time of publication – i.e., to remove doubt.
I am fine. Well enough to both manage grief and to know that I can safely write about related themes -i.e., difficult themes like death based on only modest experience of it but also deep reading of philosophy – without having to return to sombre mood. Giving my return from suicidal days past however, it is my mistake in not making clear that I am doing just fine. My failure of empathy to acknowledge others may read differently my words. For me at least, such writing is not reflective of descending negatively toward destructive underlying mood. It is in fact quite the opposite, because writing is for me a processing of thought and means to move me along.
I return to my desk today truly excited to be back to my research and full of life. Changing my understanding of change, as I too am changed by it. That relationship to change is ultimately what life offers us all…